Before our Moshiach class the other day, I asked someone the same simple question that I asked so many others over the last week, “How was your Pesach?”
But her response was different…
There was so much emotion that she couldn’t even answer me.
All she could finally reply was,
“I can’t believe we are STILL here…
“When we got to the Seudas Moshiach, I thought, again???
“But we just have to keep going…”
She looked crushed, broken, frustrated, disappointed…
And I understood, that it’s not because of anything that “happened” to her on Pesach…
But because of what DIDN’T happen on Pesach…
That it was not a pain of the body, but a pain of the soul…
It’s the feeling that you get when you learn so much about Moshiach, and teach so much about Moshiach, and think so much about Moshiach…
That you can’t help but start truly feeling it, truly wanting it, truly expecting it!
And then,
When you still don’t see Moshiach, it hurts!
It stings!
It is so painful!
It feels so unfair!
And it feels so unacceptable from Hashem’s end…
But at the same time -
There is nothing more beautiful!
There is nothing more precious!
There is nothing more touching!
*Because this is the face of a true Chossid.*
Because this is the kind of caring that the Rebbe cried for on 28 Nissan…
Because this is what it looks like when it DOES make a difference to us that Moshiach didn’t show up yesterday, and when we ARE shocked that Moshiach didn’t show up today…
Because this is the goal that the Rebbe expressed for our generation in the end of the last maamer that he handed out to us -
"כי בכתית למאור נכלל גם זה שישראל הם שבורים ונדכאים (כתית) מזה שהם בגלות…"
Because this is what it looks like when the Rebbe SUCCEEDS in His mission to awaken our spark of Moshiach - to reveal the essence of our Neshama, which feels crushed even when there are no external threats or difficulties…
Crushed just because of the fact that Hashem is not yet fully revealed in this world!
And because this is the meaning of the burning of the “Ner Tamid” - the eternal flame, which continues to burn in more and more hearts, even 30 years after we received this maamer…
And that will never stop burning until we see the full revelation of Hashem and of King Moshiach - in the 3rd Beis Hamikdash in Yerushalayim!
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